No redue button so it doesn't do any good to beat yourself up about it at this point. It's hard to balance everything out in life. In life we can look back and wish we had done this or that differently. At least you weren't stealing and lying and not around because of a meth habit.I'm sure what your saying is you could have been with family more had you not hunted deer. Not that you were never around your family. Remember you need to do things that make you happy also. Because everything would still be exactly the same as they are now had you never stepped foot in the woods. You have nothing to feel guilty about.